I've been blogging alot these days, wonder if that's a good or bad sign.



I'm feeling so bad turning down so many people before I leave this friday for vacation; my colleague who wants me to help her through a breakup, an old friend whose shopping advise I'd like, my family whom I've missed since I wake when they're sleeping and I go back when they're also asleep.



So many things to do, so little time to finish it...

I am tired.

Know how all of us live with a certain amount of anger and discontentment?

I know I'm reaching my limits soon.

Just because I am younger than the rest doesn't mean that I work like a machine. True, I can probably endure back to back schedules better but I should really like to have a rest so that I don't die too early. I would like to be able to at least produce some grandchildren and pass down my beloved items.

Yet I don't want to make things difficult for my manager. I find myself cursing more and more.

I wonder why nowadays, things of the past comes back to haunt me in my dreams. I can't sleep properly. I'm missing people and living my days in regret.

Where is my peace?

My blog died for a long period of time and has been revived now. Hopefully.

Festive period is chaotic. So how did I find the time to blog? Out of sheer randomness, taking the chance that I am alone in the shop having rushed and finished almost everything that needs to urgent attention at the current moment.

It's amazing how nasty some people can get, those you will only see when you step out of school. They twist and manipulate their words and I cannot say anything to defend myself unless...

it is my last day at work.

That's the damn part about service industry. I need a Sucking Up 101 Lesson.

At the mean time, I'm hoping real hard that my body will maintain. I'm really tired, I'm on the verge of getting sick but I cannot afford an MC. It would be at the expense of others and I know they are as tired as I am, juggling work life and personal life (or trying to have a life after work). I'm just pushing myself as much as I can.

After all, I'm young only once. I want to do as much as possible before my body can't keep up with my dreams anymore.